I told myself that today was the day. I've done so much lately from planning my son's 10th birthday party, future trips and vacations to bridesmaid duties and ALWAYS being on mom duty....I had to do it. I couldn't put it off any longer. If I could make time for everyone else it was time, past time for me to make time for future Chalina.
I don't know the direction I am going into, but I'd like to be transparent for a moment if you please......I've been afraid. Everyone blogs, everyone vlogs, everyone has a YouTube channel, what sets me aside from them? What would allow me to draw a following? Why would people care about what I have to say?
I don't have the answers, but God does. He is my everything. He is my calm, my peace, my agility, my shelter....shall I go on? My intent isn't to be "holier than thou" but rather provide you with the premise behind me finally getting on my feet. Now I just have to learn how to walk.
I said I've been afraid, because I have. I procrastinate because I fear failure, I don't want things to go wrong, and when they do, I run. The problem is in most cases you have to sort through the failure to grab the lesson, and who wants to do that?
So I've run, for years and years, not understanding why I didn't feel completely whole. Why did I have this insatiable appetite I couldn't fill? I've now figured, it's because I am not doing what God has gifted me to do.
So I am beginning. The thing that will set me aside is MY STORY. God will provide the avenue, I just have to decide on whether I keep driving or remain in park out of fear ...
Stay tuned.
I don't know the direction I am going into, but I'd like to be transparent for a moment if you please......I've been afraid. Everyone blogs, everyone vlogs, everyone has a YouTube channel, what sets me aside from them? What would allow me to draw a following? Why would people care about what I have to say?
I don't have the answers, but God does. He is my everything. He is my calm, my peace, my agility, my shelter....shall I go on? My intent isn't to be "holier than thou" but rather provide you with the premise behind me finally getting on my feet. Now I just have to learn how to walk.
I said I've been afraid, because I have. I procrastinate because I fear failure, I don't want things to go wrong, and when they do, I run. The problem is in most cases you have to sort through the failure to grab the lesson, and who wants to do that?
So I've run, for years and years, not understanding why I didn't feel completely whole. Why did I have this insatiable appetite I couldn't fill? I've now figured, it's because I am not doing what God has gifted me to do.
So I am beginning. The thing that will set me aside is MY STORY. God will provide the avenue, I just have to decide on whether I keep driving or remain in park out of fear ...
Stay tuned.
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